quiettotheend

[ these were meant to be individually locked, but are all public ]

I just want to thank everyone here for -- for bein more than I ever expected. I know that livin in Chiago can be hardd and I guess I'm kind of testamnet of that, but

i don't even KNOW what I'm trying to say here. Um. Thank you. Just. I never actually expected to have such good people in my life or to have a life at all, so it's been more than I ever wanted. Ive ade friends and learned what that even means. Just. Thank you. so mch.

Mom,

i'm sorry it had to end this way. I wish -- I wish you were here. I'm just so scared. I thought i wouldn't be I thought I was ready, but I'm not. I need you and I love you.

Dad,

I know your job is important and all, but I guess this isn't even going to get to you because you're in New York but if you are in town, if you could just spend a little time with me because I don't think -- I miss you. Daaddy, please.

Elashte,

Thank you so much for all you've done for me. I'm sorry I couldn't learn fast enough and that we couldn't spend more time together. You changed my life in so many ways.

Elizabeth,

---can you make the pain stop?

I'm sorry I wasn't a very good friend and now I'm asking this, but it hurts. Please.

[locked to Elizabeth]
i miss you

[locked to El]
they won't let me out without you

I've lost people I've cared about. This town has taken so many people from me. People I've loved. All I want is to be able to hold onto someone or something before I die.

Recently, I told someone that while living in Chicago is hard, it's worth it.

This city is killing me. The stress is literally killing me.

Taylor Barnam is worth it.

Tay taught me what it means to care about people. She taught me what it means to respect. She taught me that it's okay to want something for myself. She taught me, in a way, how little difference there is between an angel and a demon. She taught me how much my life is worth.

She taught me so much, and I had only known her for six months.

She was worth it, but I'm so afraid things are only going to get worse. I'm not sure I can handle worse. I'm not sure I can handle this.

i just want
to know when i'll
die

So. Mr. vader.

Taking over the world this weekend.

y/y?

Once upon a time...

[ El is currently listed as Tabitha's ICE 1 number. Which is why he's currently the one being called by a moderately annoyed police officer, from Tabitha's phone. ]

[locked to Elizabeth]

i think i owe you cookie baking time!

[locked to the man she threw snowballs with]

do you like cookies?

[This post is not backdated. Tabitha thinks it is still Christmas.]

[Locked to Elizabeth]
merry chrismtas
elizabeh
--hope it was al you hoped for
<3 Tabitha

--thank you for the mug i cant wait to use it

[Locked to that one guy who taught her how to throw snowballs]
merry christmas
mr vader
--hope you hit lots of stogy old men with snow balls
(i hav a small prsent for you, if i ever see you again)
<3 young padawa

[Locked to the police officer who saved her]
merry chrimast
i dont know how to thank you
if you hadn't id on't know
i want to thank you
when i can go home
i dont know how? maybe diner?

i hope you areent alone for most of today. thats never fair. im sure someone like ou has a big family. big heart big family, right? big dinner. fireplace. ham. definitely ham. you wont have to work all of today? youll have time... for chrismas right?
--tabitha

[Locked to her dad]
im sorry i messed everthing up
i always do

illmake it up to you
promise
<3tabitha

[Locked to Tay]
hope you have a merry christmas
better than lagues
sorry bout always asking favors
but can you bring some of m stuff?

<3tabitha

[Public]

merry chrismtas

Thank you so much.

My dad's already drawn the papers up. When would be a convenient time for us to come by?

Really. I can't even express how thankful I am that you are willing to do this for me.